Thursday, December 28, 2006
1:17 AM
jus viewed NvEr's blogg. im not so good in vocab but im really moved.
so .. this entry is inspired by her.
however, instead of photo. i reviewed the videos of the chalet.
im surprise i still laughed at some scene even thou i've watched it times n times again.
sad to say..the group of 7 dun really clique anymore.
i might be the cause of it. guilty over it as well..
jus hope pple understands why.
jus like i said.
disputes rise among every group n circle of fren
but no matter wat happens
i believes tt bonds will still be bonded..
however, friendship wun last.
trust, sincerity, security, belongingness is the 4 essential quality for the eternalship of all relation.
i'll always tell myself,"i hates n loves sum1 till the very end of my life."
but
i always ask myself,"how long will it lasts? as time goes by, everything jus fades. do people wait? can i stop all these now?"
till now, i dun really know how to answer. maybe i dun understands myself at all.
approaching friends for answer is wat i always did.
confidence is something i never had.
courage is something i lack of.
trust is something i cant give and get.
sincerity, i know i have it but it can hardly get appreciated.
perseverance, i believes tt it comes with sincerity.
security is something tt cant be promised.
committment, lost the touch of it n dun wish to try it again.
hope, no longer carries it around.
luck, the very last thing tt has been around me for long. good or bad.
sometimes, i really wish tt i can let it go. right, its not easy to likes someone.. but its not easy to forget someone oso. times doesnt heals, it jus allows pple to get used to it. maybe all these while wat she did was meant for good, but to me..the wound seems to be getting deeper. i tried, but not hard enough. its jus like wat others say.. im still nt good enuff. moves on. i shud have went along wif her wish n let it heals. can friend really last like wat she said. jus wish to lend a pair of ear to share the sorrow. tml has never been a better day ever since tt day. losing a best fren is worst than fallin out of love, i jus know tt. i know even turning back now still will no longer leads back the same road. but looking back to the past, all the things i've done, can she felt it? i've always say to myself, no point regreting coz nothing can be reverted. haha.. i really regretted the very moment i confessed everything. always wondering if things will be different if a decision made is changed. jus like "dejavu". hais. nothing matters anymore, i've decided to accept F.F n removes the bandages. life still goes on.
even writing all these.. im doubting myself whether all these speak from my heart or am i deceiving myself. haha..
hey NvEr` im quite a tank for alcohol. ^^
felt much better bloggin it down.
i shud really go for english lessons. lol.
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Philosophy
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget the ones who don’t and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it would be easy; they just promised it would be worth it.
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A friend is like a four leaf clover, very hard to find but very lucky to have.
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